I hold you tightly within my heart

We planed to take a vacances for 2 weeks in the South of French; Lourdes and Lavender Field, to cherish the day when we made our promise in front of God. 2 years ago, He blessed us to be united. But suddenly, a terrible news come from our family in Indonesia; God took Icel, our lovely niece so early.

A little one who bring a smile in my broken heart, a little one who become my dreamer partner every night, took a map of Paris, pretended to be a tourist in Paris looking where we want to go; from Eiffel to Notre Dame, walking a long of La Seine while eating an ice cream (and yes, we did that for a real when she come here for our wedding; walking in Paris!!! )… a little one who asking to have a ride moto around our residence before I go to work… a little one who run and hug me when I come home after work… a little one who like taking a photo with me… a little one who always asking to take a video when we have an ice cream…. a little one who call me “ii” while run and hug me when I arrived in airport…

our little one who become our flower girl in our wedding day…

a little one who made me feel so much loved and yes, I love her so much….

So we changed the plan and took our ticket to Indonesia for a week to see her for the last time… and a week to Lourdes.

We prayed in the cave of Virgin Mary, walking the way of the cross to pray for her little soul, and joined the mass in the basilique. God gives strength so I could find peace in this pain because I know God always beside me and also beside her… I never imagined before that loosing someone who have special place in your heart gone before you give you so much pain. This pain is beyond belief….

Climbed the rock and find the God’s beauty so I could breath….

Remembering us to keep moving even we must walking in a steepest road… because we will find the beauty that God prepared for us in the end

Enjoying a moment after a hard time together…

Walked in a garden full of greens and flowers so I could healing…

Took a time to admire the flowers….

so I could find other sun without forget the sun that she bring…

 The trumpet will sound, and the dead will be raised incorruptible, and we shall be changed. … So when this corruptible has put on incorruption, and this mortal has put on immortality, then shall be brought to pass the saying that is written: ‘Death is swallowed up in victory’  (1 Corinthians 15:52, 54).

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)

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